Oh Awkward Me

Oh awkward me
Girl, listen please
You're not alone and you are home

Oh awkward me
Girl, listen please
You are free as free can be

You're simply taking it too far
but I'm here to tell you
that you can be just who you are
And when you're down and it's so hard to come around
Just one step girl, and you'll take over the world

Oh silent me
Girl, speak please
I'm hearing you now loud and clear
Scream and shout to disappear

Oh misery me
Girl, sleep please
It's not your fault baby
Be safe and sound near me

You're simply taking it too far
but I'm here to tell you
that you can be just who you are
And when you're down and it's so hard to come around
Just one step girl, and you'll take over the world

The Math Song

I guess it's hard to apply what we do
from what we're taught in school to the life that is true
It's inevitable, it's kinda of laughable
So we forget it all after it's all over

It's time we fight the inner thought that think it was lame
to put our heart and soul in this mathematics game
From a multiple of things to a couple to one
You wouldn't make it if you don't think this is fun

I guess it's time to make a change
to pass the test, not pass the blame
to understand, not cheat with shame
to realize
to use the brain

Because we can
like it is all we do
Because we can
when it is me and you

I wake up in the dark
I'm cranky so please don't turn the lights up
In my head, it's braindead
The universe spins and I'm already sick

Static in my ears
Starts to wipe my tears
I don't know why but I'm already here
Sick of always wrong
Please just move along
Thought I saw something but there's nothing here

I don't have the answer for this! (2x)
And I'm alone by myself tonight
There's nothing here that sounds just right
The cat downstairs just give me a fright

Questions in, nothing's out
I'm at number one, but help, I am blacked out
Need a pill, I'm shivering
Judges are like bullets that pierce in

Take a deep breath, dear
Overcome my fear
Rubbish keeps flowing in as if I'm not here
Get my head off clear
from the mess, disappear!
Left and right, thank God, the coast is clear

I don't have the answer for this! (2x)
So I better start to search for it
Before it's getting far too late
And later people will find me dead

Right or wrong are just abstract arts
What's sincere and true is in our hearts
If the thoughts that count then just spin around
And block all the dirt and the mocking sound
When the fire's out but still it burns
Then trust me dear, that's how we learn
We'll smile and we'll laugh and we'll dance and we'll love
and we'll make it through even when it's rough

I finally have the answer for this! (2x)
But I shouldn't care for it at all
Hey, push me down but I won't fall
Fire's out and there I stand tall
Fire's out, I'm over it all
And the fire's out, I'll burn it back up

Far fetch

They're not in hole

Not in hell

Yet life tells them

It's far-fetch

They are and will

and wait and still
It's far-fetch

Enough is enough

The blood is too rough

Hills too high to climb

To hide to live to breathe to die

Enough is enough
If this is so tough
Then prove to me to her to him
to them to believe in

Time is time

Wait for no one

And I
I'l be fine
Time is time
crossing that line
And I
I'm fine

Fears (2nd draft)

Stop and hold your stare
You can see that I shiver
It's a shame you won't be there
Lacking the sweet from the bitter

I know it's not forever
If I ever let it go
I've got to let it go

Wear a shade 
I'll show you my light
Burst bright to the eyes
Dare yourself to come close
Don't be afraid for tonight
Hold my hand, grab the fears, throw them off a cliff
And see them blow
Hold my hand, drive me home, throw all the 'what if's
And see how it goes
Let's see how it goes 

Stop and hold your gaze
See the crack on my armor
The fears had crept in
I'm in a daze
They left me shook in terror

I know it's not forever
If I ever let it go
I've got to let it go

You can see through the telescope
So full of hanging hopes
But once you figured out
You let it slide, you let it die

Burn the unlit bulbs
Guise all the broken glass
Fix them, bloody past
With dark tape, it's the new age

See through the telescope
The thin line of the rope
Once you reach out 
Hold on to it, please savor it 

I said,
I'll show you my light
Burst bright to the eyes
Dare yourself to come close
Don't be afraid for tonight
Hold my hand, grab the fears, throw them off a cliff
And see them blow
Hold my hand, drive me home, throw all the 'what if's
And see how it goes

See how we go from here
I need you to be near
See how we go from here
We've overcome the fears 

--
Inspired by Divergent. To be Dauntless, you have to face you fears.

Five Fears (first draft)

[verse] 

One is when I'm standing at the top
The height doubled my thoughts
The force from falling down
The blow from the lower ground

Two being the people voice
Hungry for the mistakes, the wrongs 
Not to save but to laugh
Though, I thank them for making me tough

[Chorus]

You can see through the telescope
So full of hanging hopes
But once you figured out
You let it slide, you let it die

Line up all the bulbs
Guise all the broken glass
Fix them with dark tape
Cover all the scars, cover all the past

[verse] 

Three, the weakness reveal
Never a good liar, but never the one to expose
Being so little do help, no one see me
So no one will use me, I suppose

Four, the tears, the tears
No, never ever come out, don't ever
I learn to fake it till I make it
I learn to believe that I believe it

[Chorus] 

You can see through the telescope
So full of hanging hopes
But once you figured out
You let it slide, you let it die

I said, I'll show you my light
Burst bright to the eyes
Dare yourself to come closer 
But not near to my fears

[bridge] 

And the five is the left out
Better to be alone from the start
than to leave at the very last
like shooting broken arrow to the heart 

Stand near the shock alarm
The blades, I'm all armed
The ticking stop
I know it's time
To face the fears
To finally climb

[chorus]

You can see through the telescope
The thin line of the rope
But once you reached out 
You hung to it, you cherished it 

I said, I'll show you my light
Burst bright to the eyes
Dare yourself to come closer, come closer

Line up all the bulbsGuise all the broken glass
Fix them with dark tape
Cover all the scars, cover all the past

The ticking stop
I know it's time
To face the fears
To finally climb

Fears

First, I'm standing at the top
The height had doubled my thoughts
The force from falling down
The blow from the lower ground

Second, the people's voices
Hungry for the mistakes, the wrongs 
Not to save but to laugh
Though, thanks
You're making me tough

Third, the weakness reveal
Never a good liar, but never the one to expose
Being so little does help, no one will see me
So no one will use me, I suppose

Fourth, the left out
Better to be alone from the start
than to leave when it's starting to last
like shooting broken arrow to the heart 

Fifth, the pain from the hurt
The pitch black from the dark
The sudden from the alert
The burn from the mark

Fears, fears, fears
The voices, the thoughts
Make one miserable
Make two rival

Fears, fears, fears
The voices, the thoughts
Make one tough
Make two love

--
Inspired by Divergent, actually. To be Dauntless, you have to face you fears.
The collection of the fears from the book. 

Heroes

I’m not a soldier

I’m not a warrior

Though in my heart,

ignites a spirit of a fighter

Fear not sons, fear not daughters

Your will and hope are never a bother

For you I pray

Till the faithful day

May the raging nights fade away

And the hope shines bright from the darkest grey

With a smile upon the sunshine’s ray

Your sacrifices are in our souls

Your stories will soon be told

As a hero who is brave and bold

For it will last till I’m senile and old

Heroes never die

Heroes never cry

Heroes are remembered by you and I

This is dedicated to the Lahad Datu's warriors.

And also to the Palestine fighters. 

What's Left

She realized it's time to brace herself for the fall
Though in denial for the final last stupid call
Sat alone, thinking 'bout the change that occur
Too strong to cry but too weak to get over 

Organized her life, unprepared for all the bumps
A broken smile plastered on her face, she becomes
the last one standing on the sidewalk
Can't help but wish she has someone to talk 

Complicated it seems, such a life it has been
What's left is to pray and shrug it all away 

Mistakes were made for those he won't pay
Ignore were the step he took to run away
Fun and games were all he could think
Little did he knows, he's guilty within 

All it took is a messed up prank by messed up friends
A heart was opened for the first time that night
A feeling that he was long trying to fight
And finally it had come to his sight 

Complicated it seems, such a life it has been
What's left is to say, "sorry and please forgive me." 

It's a story of a flower off the cage
Two eyes find each other a clue
Turns red that formed huge rage
To blue that shined hope, oooh 

Complicated it seems such a life it has been
What's left is to make amends and swear to not break

--

Inspired from my friend.
She's gonna kill me, I know...

Final Countdown

9, 8, it's too late
To start over and come back
I'm over, no turning back
7, 6, I'm sick
of all the confusing
Refusing to moving
It's 5, I'll survive
this life, tonight

So think I'm starting to count
4, 3, deep down and breathe
I'm changed like the sky
and splashed like the sea
And it's 2, 1, the last countdown
First there'll be no sound 
0, it's time now.

(Tryin to Satellite'd it up)

An Angel With A Shotgun

An angel with a shotgun, they said
I'm out of bullets they made
Surrounded by fire and I escape

Growing up in dark, creep alley
The results may be vary
Surrender or beware the shots I carry

Chorus:
I'm becoming someone I looked up to reluctantly
I hear an odd voice inside me shouting
"Dude, can't you see?"
I'm just an angel with a shotgun
An angel with a shotgun.

The sacrifice, I know it's stupid
And all the lies, I know it's worth it
Skipping time, we're assigned
Believing everything is fine

The raging war, I might be losing
Shielded scar, and look I've come this far
There's an illusion of a ghost I can't see
I'm aware but no I ain't disagree  

I'm becoming someone I looked up to reluctantly
Would the world around hear me shouting,
"Dude, can't you see?"
I'm just an angel with a shotgun
An angel with a shotgun.

I'm an angel with a shotgun
But I'm outta bullets

--

Inspired by Dick Grayson.

Depth

I stood and looked at you
Our eyes talked and argued
These things holding me through
Ridiculous slang
The fake Dracula fang
And the parody songs we sang

Spitfire ignites in us
4 am and it’s just...

Chorus:
You’re on the rooftop
Staring, I’m leaving
I swear my heart could stop
As I hold my tears from falling
My feet from turning

I’m in deep, ocean depth

What could go wrong, babe?
I need to be strong and
Go against the usual flow, hiding low

I am needed this time
No offer to decline
Realized I can never leave the past behind

Chorus:
You’re on the rooftop
Staring, I’m leaving
I swear my heart could stop
As I hold my tears from falling
My feet from turning

It will be dangerous, treacherous
Need to prove: flawless
In this roadless battlefield
If I did go for real
Will you hold me and feel
And forgive

Spitfire ignites in us
4 am and it’s just...

Chorus:
You’re on the rooftop
Staring, I’m leaving
I swear my heart could stop
As I hold my tears from falling
My feet from turning

You leave the rooftop
And wear all the memories
I wish the time would just stop
‘Cause I fear the what ifs
The consequences
The heartaches
It's high risk at stake

Baby, take a deep breath
'Cause I’m in deep ocean depth

--

Inspired by Spitfire, Young Justice.
The undercover.